No, Lord, don’t send me. I have never been a good speaker, and I haven’t become one since you began to speak to me. I am a poor speaker, slow and hesitant… ~Exodus 4:10
Anxiety, depression, cripple, deaf… We have so many barriers in life that strive to hold us back. It’s common now to assume someone is at a disadvantage in our modern world if one has a mental or physical setback. There is a law in place that employers must prove they are not discriminating against anyone who struggles in one or more of these areas. A law that did not come into effect just “because”. To anyone who is struggling, you know how hard it is in society to not be looked down on or discriminated against. Many have dealt with bullying, cyberbullying, and job instability, recreational exclusion, etc. It is nearly impossible to think highly of yourself when society keeps repeatedly contradicting you. Unfortunately, if someone keeps telling you the type of person you are, it’s easy to start believing the lie.
How can God use me, when there are better people for the job? This was the very question Moses asked God in Exodus. Moses was known to have a speak impediment, and also supposedly was slow to comprehend. Moses thought nothing high of himself, but one of the lowest of the low. He was not eloquent, or gifted in any way to which God wanted to use him. All he could see were the labels society had stuck on him, telling him who he was. Moses was confused as to why God would want to use him instead of someone who was a natural born speaker, and maybe a master of persuasion. After years of being shown his downfall, he could no longer see his potential.
Why did God choose Moses? Moses was created for a specific purpose, and given the necessary tools in order to complete them. When Moses was young, his mother placed him into a basket and sent him down the river in hopes he would escape persecution. Moses basket drifted into the palace where he was noticed by the to nobel woman who ended up raising him as her own. Time went on, and Moses was called to save God’s people from captivity and slavery. Moses was troubled and tormented by this calling, as he saw the labels others had bestowed upon him. He saw the label of “unfit” and “handicapped”. He didn’t see God’s label of “Chosen”.
How did Moses overcome the fear of “never being good enough”? I’m sure I do not stand alone when I say that there have been times when I don’t feel good enough. I have been given opportunities that I haven’t felt good enough for. I cheapen my value based on a label that was stuck to my chest, placed there by someone who doesn’t know God’s plan for me. And worst of all, I make God’s grace cheap when I try to prove that I am unworthy of being used for greatness. God spoke to Moses and said “ Who makes people able to speak or makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Don’t you know that I am the one who does these things?” (Exodus 4:11). I love that I serve a God with a sense of humor. Instead of saying “No, I won’t send anyone else”, He makes Moses look to himself and peel the false labels off himself.
God empowered Moses. After melting away the false declarations of worth Moses had believed to be, God empowered Moses by reminding him, he is never alone. Many times in the Bible God reminds his faithful servants of his presence “I will never leave you or forsake you” Hebrew 13:5. We never face anything alone, thankfully! No matter the mountain or valley. God spoke to Moses and said “Now Go! When you speak, I will be with you and give you the words to say” Exodus 4:12.God wants to empower us through our weaknesses, not to show how little we are, but just how mighty he is. God’s work is so powerful that no physical or mental setback can stand against him; no amount of anxiety, no number of lost limbs. God is waiting for you to open your heart and reach out in faith so He can fill you up where flesh has failed.
What does this mean for Millennials? In the time that we live in now, more and more people are standing up for their shortcomings. More people are open to sharing their struggles. But even still, these individuals face ridicule and prejudice everywhere they turn. Children from a young age are told they won’t amount to anything because they “look different”. Children are told they can’t be in a ballet class because their body doesn’t fit the “mold”. What kind of a world are we creating when this is how people are being treated? I dare you to be the ripple that causes the change. God is empowering you to be everything you possibly can through Him. Rise above the slander and hate. Be the gorgeous, courageous, creature God created you to be.